I am human

I laugh, I cry
I bleed and I can die
Good times and bad
Happy or sad
I am human
Thoughts and emotions
Racing around my head
Good moments the never
Seem to last long enough
I am human
And sometimes I just need
A drink

The Meaning of Freedom

Freedom is not this list set in stone. It does not mean you are free only if you have A, B, and C. The meaning of freedom is different for every person. That meaning can also change as a person goes through different experiences. Freedom is not only an American idea either. For one person freedom might be tied to soldiers, for someone else it may not. One person’s idea of freedom might be very simple while someone else has a very complex idea of what freedom means. All personal views of freedom are right.

No matter what your freedom is, No matter what my freedom is, every freedom comes at a price.

To me freedom is being able to choose how I live. I don’t want to work a typical 9 to 5 job I hate. The price I have to pay for that freedom is learning to live on less money. Sometimes I even have to deal with people calling me lazy or a bum.

Every moment of every day we have to decide if the freedom is worth the price.

The Nature of Friendship

There are many levels of friendship and each one is different for each person. I have yet to find that perfect friendship that has everything I want.  I have known deep loneliness. I looked for that friend who could be the cure all to my depression and loneliness but I never found them. I guess you can say I have kind of given up on ever finding that perfect best friend. Instead I have started settling into the friendships I have.

Those relationships are the ones that really test me. I am tested every day by a cat who always seems to want attention when I am busy or too tried. Every day she reminds me that I have to take time for others if I want them to take time for me. One of my human friends reminds me that sometimes opposites can attract and become good friends. I see her personality and I am always reminded of why I live my life the way I do.

The real nature of friendship is that you have to treat it like a marriage. You pick someone and you become stuck to each other. You just don’t leave them because of some little annoying habit they have. You have to learn to deal with it. 

Spiritual Ayurveda

Ayurveda is the system of healing that has been used in India for thousands of years. It looks at both a person's body as well as their mind.
My new Ayurveda doctor gave me a short list of things to do for my spiritual health.
Find a meditation group
She told me to look online for a meditation group near me. I knew there were alot of groups in Cincinnati but I wanted to find one close enough for me to walk to. I don't drive if I can help it. I found a group called sahaja meditation. It is almost a mix of yoga and meditation.

My New Ayurveda Life

I saw my New Ayurveda doctor yesterday. She was very nice and helpful. She looked at my tongue and took my pulse. After answering lots of questions she told me how to live a healthier life.

Physical

• Drink 50 to 100 ounces of water a day
• eat more vegetables 
• eat less fruit - Only one piece a day - one apple or one orange
• Go Gluten free
• Scrap my tongue in morning and evening 
• wash eyes with cool water
• put a little coconut oil on my under my nose
• cook everything - cooked is better then raw even when it comes to fruit
• Don't buy any boxed, canned or refined foods
• When shopping go around the edge of the store instead of going down the rows
• Eat more Indian food

For breakfast she suggested I try steel cut oats mixed with cinnamon, Maple Syrup and milk cooked in a rice cooker.

I will right another post soon about the spiritual things she told me to do.