I read article after article trying to find
something good and meaningful to write about. I stress over the outline, trying
to make sure each word is in the perfect place. This unnecessary stress has
been building up on me for many months. Stress from this blog stress from life
in general, building up block by block until I stood in a small windowless
room. I was locked in by my own fears. Mostly fear of getting hurt or not being
good enough. Well now I am beginning the long process of tearing down the
walls, brick by brick.
I was reading another one of those articles just
moments ago when I can across this line.
“To get
into the travel mindset, you have to treat every day as if you were traveling!
Always be open to new experiences, people, food and activities. Branch out of
your comfort zone and take daily risks. Unsettle your routines and live like
every day is an adventure.”
It suddenly hit me. I use to enjoy every little
detail about life and now I barely even see them. That quote is the embodiment of
my goal. I want to get back to the point of being able to enjoy the simple act
of blowing bubbles or the smell of a summer rain. I want to feel all emotions,
good, bad and downright heartbreaking. I will take the good with the bad because
there really is nothing worse than the numb nothingness I find myself in
lately.
