Black Box of Gratefulness

I am grateful for my kitchen full of food. I am lucky and blessed to live in a country that gives money to the people who can’t work. Without the money I get each month, I would have to live in my mother’s basement again. I love my mom a great deal but we are too different to live together. I try not to think about it because my lack of a large family who shares my beliefs is depressing. I try to remind myself that there are people in this world who are all alone. There are people who somehow live without family or friends checking in on them. I don’t know how they do it. I have a hard enough time just dealing with the fact that I have no one to share my religion or my vegetarian food. I have no one to cook for or clean for but I try to be grateful for my apartment with heat, running water, electricity and a full kitchen. I don’t have a lot of channels but at least I have a working TV that I can watch the news on every morning. I don’t have the money to buy a new book every time I finish reading the last one but I can go to the library every day and check out any book or movie I want. I am saving money to buy a house one day. I am grateful for the ability to own something on my own. I own my truck and one day I will own a big house. Today I am grateful for my full belly.  

Spending less money and Asking for what I want part one

Instead of stressing about the things I don’t have or how long it will take me to save for the things I want, I have come up with a plan.

I want to pay off my debt, buy a house and travel to India for six months.

These three things will take a lot of money so I have to see where I can cut expenses. I want to keep my apartment, my truck and my cell phone so I will keep paying those bills every month.

 I like to watch movies but I don’t really need to go to the movies or buy DVDs when there are movies for free at the library. Yes I will most likely have to go to the one downtown but that is not so bad, at least I have a running truck.

 I have been over eating lately and it just hit me really hard this morning. I was reading about children who were living on only a hand full of rice twice a day. Not an adult handful either.  That’s it just a small bit of rice and dirty water. I can buy an entire weeks’ worth of their food for less than a dollar.  So way would I ever need more than $15 dollars’ worth of food a month? If I eat less I will spend less money and lose weight too. So I tried it.

One big meal a day and fruit, tea or something lite whenever I get hungry.  I did not eat something every two hours. I did not eat at set times. I just listened to my body and ate when I needed it. Well guess what. Just two days into this new “diet” and I have more energy than I have had in years. Less migraines and muscle pain. Best of all I can think! The fibro-fog has lifted! This alone seems like a miracle come from the simplest of changes.

 I still get enough migraines and pain that I can’t lift heavy things or stand on my feet for long periods but I am happier. Some people might look down on me for not working a typical job or going to the food pantry when I run out of veggies but I don’t want their life so their words don’t matter. It is ego and pride that has keep me from asking for help. Reading about other people’s suffering kicked that real quickly. I truly believe God will give me what I need if I just ask for it.

 Now back to my main point. Since I am not spending money on food or movies. Since I am only paying the bills and for Gas in my truck. I have more money to put aside each month for paying off my debt, buying a house and booking a plane ticket to India.  It will still take me years to save up the whole amount for each thing but not as many years. So what’s next?

The things I want that don’t have to cost money. Being happy, enjoying my life with passion and not being alone. All of that will come in my next post. 

My New Health Journal and My New Doctor

I started keeping a health Journal again. I am tracking everything i eat, everything i do and any pain or symptoms I have. I know I have started many health Journals before and quickly got tired of them. I am not saying I won't get tired of this one but I am going to force myself to keep at it.

One good thing about living in Louisville again is Rainbow Blossom. Every month they have a Day with the Doctor. Once a month I can go see a doctor who deals in natural treatments. I get fifteen minutes for free. More if no one else is signed up. There are really two Day with the Doctor  each month but I don't like the parking at the St. Matthews branch so I will just have to stick to once a month at the Highlands Rainbow Blossom.

Wish Me Luck.

Learning to live an unplanned life

Today I was wasting time online when I saw this quote.
"How do you make God laugh? Say 'I have a plan'".
I have tried every kind of plan I can think of and still nothing ever seems to work. I can't do the same things at the same time everyday and most days I am lucky if I get half the things on my to do list done. Even now as I write this I am fighting to see over my cat who decided she just had to come sit on my chest. I am trying to let go of all my expections for both the future and the persent. God decides what happens in every moment of our lives. It does not do me any good to stress over how long my to do list is or how many things I did not get done. I could not focus well enough to work on my novel today but that's ok. There is always tomorrow. Right now I am going to let go of my stress and watch tv with my jelous cat. Good night everybody. I hope tomorrow is a happy stress free day for you and your family.

Why I like Covering my head.

I have always been fascinated by head coverings. From the tight, super covering scarfs some Muslim women wear to the loose end of a sari thrown over the heads of many Indian women. I would love to walk around all day everyday with the end of my sari gently blowing in the wind around my face. Sadly I only have one sari so I have to make due with a scarf.